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This blog focuses on going up and UP in spite of unwilling trips down.
In short, I'm bipolar.
Welcome to the mountain. Let's get in shape together.
Showing posts with label willpower. Show all posts
Showing posts with label willpower. Show all posts

Thursday, November 27, 2008

My New Rules

Photo Credit: givepeasachance (Flickr)

My New Rules (courtesy of Dr. Shrink Wrap)

  • When I go to bed each night, place morning pills at bedside table with a water bottle.
  • Take morning meds as soon as I wake up - when my eyes open.
  • Get out of bed as soon as pills are swallowed.
  • Take an hour's brisk walk (or have an hour of some other vigorous exercise) as soon as possible in the morning.
  • Stop eating things that a pre-diabetic person should not eat.
  • Stop blaming anything or anyone else on my inability to do the things I need to do to take care of myself.
Like 'em? Not sure yet if I do, but I'm willing to try (which is a good sign). I have printed out 4 copies to place around the whole house.

Before my diagnosis, I was very good with rules. If I made one for myself, I did not break it. End of story. Take for example this. I weighed over 200 pounds and was on my way to diabetes. My Dr. told me to cut carbs out of my diet and lose a significant amount of weight. And I did it - 50 pounds. No surgery. No Weight Watchers/Jenny Craig type of thing. Just me. My will.

Here's the problem. Lately, I am not so sure how much control I have over myself any more. I feel like I must regain my will to stick to my rules. To keep going up the mountain even if it's 2 steps forward and 2 back. And with bipolar, regaining my will is an even steeper mountain and heavier rock than I thought I faced when I began this cyber journey.


Well.

Since it's thanksgiving, I will end this post on a positive note. I am thankful to have found this community with whom I share my inner self. Most of my real life friends don't get it like you do. So thanks. Really.