Image Credit: Jason Pratt (Flickr)The two-headed monster is rearing its ugly head. Manic and Depressed all at once. Just when things seemed to be getting better.
The manic: It's after 11. I'm doing laundry and dishes and prepping for tomorrow's Seder. Did I really have to start the laundry? Probably not. Could I help myself? No. Would any sane person fill her dining room table with clean laundry the night before having people over for a big ceremonial meal? No. Am I sane? No. Oh, I suppose that goes without saying or I wouldn't be here.
The depressed: Well, I'm finding myself in a position where my lack of a "real" job is starting to get to me. It is hard not to be contributing financially to our household. Perhaps most of all, I worry that I am no longer as interesting to be around as I used to be. I think this is probably common among many SAHMs who are new to the job. But the fact that lots of other people experience the same thing that you do doesn't always help. It isn't helping me now.
Am I over tired? Yes. Should I go to bed? Yes. Think I will do the sane thing and do just that. After I fold the laundry that just finished in the dryer.
Over and out.
2 comments:
Big hugs! I really feel the "I'm a boring SAHM thing too" (ok, I know that doesn't help, but...) The funny thing is there's a whole lot that's interesting in my life, just not anything I can tell anyone about. ;)
Oh, I'm such a self-absorbed thing. I didn't realize you had this up until just now. Please forgive my tardy response.
Mixed States.... the single worst part about being bipolar. I hate them. I'm sorry you went through one. Has it resolved or at least picked sides - one side?
The boring SAHM? Yeah, we all go through that. I totally get MPJ. My life is busy and full, but I can't tell anyone about it without blowing my cover. So I hum along, smugly knowing I'm way more interesting than I'm letting on. I feel like a CIA operative. (:
YOU are way interesting!!! You are funny as hell, wickedly smart, thoughtful, caring, and you've always got a gazillion projects going on on top of your SAHM duties. You made a good decision to leave your paying job, now you are contributing in different ways to your family's well-being.
Much Love,
-Sophie
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